Hollywood is a mythical place. I'm convinced it doesn't actually exist. The two times I have been here in my life have been spent wandering aimlessly, looking for the glitter and glitz of the land where dreams come true. Instead, the sidewalks are cracked and people have glazed over faces while they sit in traffic going nowhere. That is one story, but I am sure it will not be the only one. I have been here for almost 6 weeks and have already lived in 7 places. It will be at least 8 before I go back. Waaaay more than New York - I was in three places in 6 months there and I thought that was a lot! It reminds me a lot of Rome. A walled city where all of the people you would really like to be spending time with are in the next piazza or at some private party somewhere. It is elusive.
I have definitely not figured this place out yet.
It is very hard to describe how I wound up here. I came to hang out with Fatlip and just decided to stay. I was looking for an excuse to stay really. I think I knew it may happen, but certainly didn't prepare for it very well. I brought one 'Mom' type audition shirt just in case.
I don't feel like I have been getting a lot done here, but I think that is mainly because i have been deep in the creative process, and, since that truly is just a process, you don't often have any real products to show for it because it is so dynamic and evolving. I have been writing a lot - spurred on by some people I have met who have great connections and insights into the industry. here is what I think I have learned so far.
- It is up to you to tell the world what you are selling. The days of being discovered in a coffee shop are long gone. If you are going to sit in a coffee shop and hope to meet someone who can help your career (that can happen) then you'd better have finished your second re-write of your screenplay, have a show reel for your choreography, and a significant IMDb page.
- If New York is about creating ideas and being inspired then LA is about polishing those ideas and turning them into products. The people I meet here are almost all in the industry. They are professionals. They are no longer just doing this for fun. They are doing it because they want to make money at it, and continuously be challenged. I feel a very strong sense of urgency to take my skills and my products to the next level. There is a saying I heard T. Harv Ecker say at a Millionaire Mind Seminar - 'Ready, Fire, Aim.' That has brought me quite far along in this process so far. Rather than allow my self to be blocked or shut down by fear or doubt I would always choose to begin the project and allow it to set it's course once it was on its way. if I am looking at the course of my career in the last two years I would say that Toronto was 'Ready', New York was 'Fire' and Los Angeles is 'Aim.'
- Work with Masters. This was my New Year's Resolution. I believe it has served me well thus far in 2013. I found an acting teacher who has already had a profound effect on the way I look at my life and the craft of acting. His name is Berg. He is so passionate about his work - it is inspiring. He asks us to be better than we were when we got there, and that is also inspiring.
- Have a plan. I was feeling kind of lost when I first got here and one of the things that kept popping into my head was - you need a plan. My plan is to stay here until June and then re-assess. I no longer have a place of residence in Toronto - or, at least after Feb 28th I won't. I will finish writing the pilot, record three songs, create a music video and go back to Toronto ready to shoot my short film.
I feel so settled into my body, I have thoughts asking myself 'am I going to regret this' and all I feel is that this is where I am supposed to be right now. I don't need to know what the future will bring or where I will end up with all of this, but I do know that this is where I am right now. be where you are. Be where you are. Be where you are?